He is on the path of life who heeds instruction,
but he who forsakes reproof goes astray.
– Proverbs 10:17
MY PRAYER: Father,
My heart aches,
And I feel so unworthy
To come before You.
I feel worthless and by the
Contemptuous smirks of others,
I’m certain they are correct.
I feel so ashamed of myself,
And nobody is there to say,
“It’s okay. God loves you no matter what.”
I feel like I need to cringe and shrink away—
Never again to hold my head high.
I feel like I should skulk about blindly in the darkness,
Rather than boldly embracing the light.
I feel like You don’t love me, Father,
And I wonder, how could You?
I know I don’t love myself, but I also know
That my feelings are a lie and not the truth.
I know that in the depth of my self-pity,
You are always with me, always vigilant,
Always available, always telling me,
“My child, I know what you’ve done.
I know how badly you feel.
I know you believe your life has no value,
But this is not how I see you—not at all.
In spite of everything, I love you
Just the way you are.
This is why I sent My Son.
He paid the price for your shame,
Washing you whiter than snow.
Now, leave the past behind.
Hold your head high and walk
With Me confidently into the future.
I still have a plan for you—
A plan filled with hope and promise,”
MY SLOGAN: God could and would if He were sought.
—I will confess my wrongdoing, knowing God is always forgiving.
—My self-worth is defined by God and not by my negative self-talk.
—Because God has covered my transgressions, I can walk in forgiveness.
—I will be grateful to God for delivering my soul from the bondage of addiction.
MY MEDITATION: Answer me quickly, O Lord, my spirit fails; do not hide Thy face from me, lest I become like those who go down to the pit. Let me hear Thy lovingkindness in the morning; for I trust in Thee; teach me the way in which I should walk; for to Thee I lift up my soul. Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies; I take refuge in Thee (Psalm 143:7-9.)
My self-talk, which has always been negative, has held me back in the following ways:
My new self-talk, which takes into consideration God’s love and acceptance, is entirely different. It is beginning to produce: